Emotional

Is there anything in your life that makes you cry every time you think about it? For me, it's the knowledge that there's a 90% chance that I will not be a parent. Nearly 37 years old and can't afford to pay a surrogate and don't want to put the task of carrying a child for me on someone... I don't want to be that type of burden!

Anytime I see people having children or a storyline that revolves around someone with a child, I get extremely emotional. I guess that's my internal clock... It's sad because I think I would actually be a pretty decent dad. Sometimes we just have to give up the things we want the most because life kind of sucks. But we put on our big boy pants and keep plowing through the daily muck and mire.

So anyhow, that's the most depressed update you'll see on a Blog I'm sure! I actually forgotten about this space... I probably won't be updating often but at least when I do it will be interesting...

XOX