I hope this helps...

So... I'm not the best at keeping up with things but hopefully that will change with this blog. I am struggling. A lot. I am 35 years old and really feel like I have nothing to show for it.

I graduated from college in 2003 with a Bachelor of Science in Liberal Arts... basically a degree in nothing.

I had a gastric bypass in 2002 and went from 515 pounds down to 280 pounds but have slowly gained back up to 396 pounds.

I met this weirdo freak in 2004 and we talked for a little while and then he went off the deep end mentally LOL and we didn't talk for quite some time. We reconnected in 2006 and officially became a couple on November 18th of 2007. We helped each other through some really hard stuff and our bond seems like it would last a lifetime. In 2014 some really bad shit went down and he was arrested for some pretty stupid charges and was incarcerated in April of 2015. He is slated to be released in May of 2020. We are currently still together.

Those are the reasons I am depressed. I will not go to the doctor for said depression because I don't believe it is that bad. If I can just get in the habit of taking my vitamins and St. John's Wort everyday I feel so much better... I am just the worst at medication. Thank God I don't have any prescriptions that I must take everyday.

The one aspect in my life that is actually going well, for now, is my job. I have worked in all sorts of Industries and none ever truly felt right. Nearly eight years ago I applied at the Jameson Inn, at the behest of my mother, for a night audit position, and was hired two days later! I have worked my way up the ranks and I'm now an assistant manager at the same location which is now Quality Inn. The hotel has changed ownership three times in my tenure and we have changed management 4 times. Currently, I am quite happy in my position, but I really hope to have my own Hotel soon. We shall see how that pans out.

So this is the getting-to-know-you post... at some point, in the near future, I will delve into parts of my psyche that hopefully won't scare anyone.